Anyhow, I am now about a week into not breathing (aka the asthma attack from hell) It’s getting better though as today I managed a 12 minute mile and could go up stairs. Ugg, so annoying not to be able to do things.
Maybe it was the frustration of the asthma attack from hell, maybe I was just tired, but I found my self telling Mike out loud “I am not sure I want to run 100 miles any more.” His advice was do what I want, not what I feel like I have to do…which was good advice. I usually do what I feel like I have to do: stay late at work, pick up the shift no one will take, go to volunteer work sick…gosh, I sounding like a martyr here, but I am really not trying to be one. I just try very hard to have the attitude of suck it up. there are a lot of things I don’t want to do, but sometimes just have to.
Well, this is my hobby, so it’s ok to do it the way I want. Maybe I’ll regret it when I can breathe again. I don’t know. But, I am super excited for Sunmart, super excited for RR 50 mile, and not feeling overwhelmed at all. I was looking forward to the camaraderie with Ryan and Mark on a loop or 2, and I do feel bad about backing out for that reason, but gotta keep it fun.
My original ultra running goals were to run and finish a 50 (done!), run and finish a 100 (done!), finish a race to get a buckle (done!). I don’t feel I have anything else to prove. The only goal I can really think of is I would like to go back to the MiWok 100K and do it again.
Anyhow, thanks to my friends for their encouragement to run a 100. Maybe next year. Maybe never again (didn’t I promise that to Stephanie in the middle of the night in Vermont about 600 times!?!)